The Journey

my arms are wide open,

i fall back,

into the sea

and it simply carries me.

my arms are wide open,

i feel so free

my arms are wide open,

i hold them pointed near each side of me

My arms are wide open,

I was finally given what was needed for me.

Words of encouragement that allows me to feel this free,

but my journey has just begun,

so I keep my arms wide open

While I watch the rising sun.

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Wholeness.

Pulling myself up, bit by bit,

I rebuild a new castle.

With new friends, in a new place.

Little flowers sprout outside my castle.

They are multi-colored, bright and beautiful.

They cover the entire field around my castle,

and I revel in their presence.

I am no longer slipping

down a deep, dark path

that grips at my ankles

trying to pull me back down.

I am thriving,

my head held high in triumph,

even when my castle is sieged by monsters

and when my flowers struggle to grow,

I don’t let the darkness swallow me whole.

Instead, my castle stands tall,

shining through the battle

and emerging anew

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goosebumps chase me as the darkness creeps in,

cold and unrelenting over my skin.

this fear i want to face,

but it tightens around me;

squeezing like a vice

till my blood turns to ice.

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i press my face against the glass,

head above the sink,

hand on on the mirror as i stare,

into my own face

into my reflection

i pace and pace and pace

even though there’s no need to race

i hold my head and stare

my hands are cold in the dark air

silence bathes the air

i stare,

and my reflection, liquid, gazes back at me.

my face is warm and i think

it’s not fair

But they don’t care.

My hands come to the glass

and I fall through,

and through

and through

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hazy lights hit my skin,

the ocean breeze salty, sticking against my face

and my feet move on their own

drawn in

the sky a dark swathe above me,

i follow the stars

my feet carry me up

gravity releasing its hold, as I climb above the water

my lungs burn, but i hold firm

reaching for the lights that bathe me in their glow.

and as i wrap my hands around the star,

i am enveloped by the glow;

the warmth like a hug from a close friend

It is free from doubt,

Free from fear

Soothing away the parts of me that fester like open wounds

And making everything seem clear.

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